Sandy Hook

The Sand Hook shootings was one of the saddest things I've heard. Those poor children will never get to turn into double digits, go to high school, go on a first date, get there heart broken, win a championship, go to prom, get married, have children of their own, go to college, and so many more life markers. The teachers, in my eyes, are some of the most heroic people I've ever heard of. Way more heroic than Tom Brady or Taylor Swift. They took their own lives for their students. They, in my mind, are close to as equal as the soldiers that fight for our country. I can not imagine how those families are feeling or what they are going through.

 My mother works in an elementary school extremely similar to Sandy Hook and all I could think about that day is this could be my mom, that thought alone made me upset, never mind the fact that 26 lives were lost. 

This was one of the worst school shootings in American History. A month after this tragic tragic event, people are calling it an "act" or "conspiracy" or even a "hoax". I've always been one to think that everyone has there own beliefs. Who has second guessed the JFK assassination, or Area 51, most people have. 

 I'm not criticizing the people who are questioning the acts of December 14th, I am just saying think about it. All the evidence that is being fed to them with things like, Emilie  Parker being with the president after the shooting or her father laughing before a press conference, can make a lot more sense than meets the eye. In the picture with Obama, there is a little girl wearing the same dress as Emilie in a previous family photo apparently means Emilie never died. A reasonable person would think about it; a little sister is most likely wearing her sisters dress. I know when me and my sisters were little we looked a lot a like and when I would even wear their dresses we could be considered twins. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion but I would just like everyone that thinks that this is a conspiracy to think about how Obama reacted in his first speech to the nation after the shootings; he was crying because he was talking like a father, not a president and he was truly saddened by the shootings. 

Another piece of Evidence that this an act, is the facebook pages made before the shootings. Yes I can see why people are suspicious. But if your computer date and time is wrong it can mess up your facebook date and time. I have wished people happy birthday days in advance because the time was screwed up. It can easily happen to a viewer that sees the date created on facebook.

The stuff being presented to the country is all circumstantial and can be interrupted in any way.  

Like I've said, people have there on beliefs and thoughts. I'm not saying anyone is wrong here, I'm just letting people hear my opinions.

Life

Do you ever wish you could go back in time and change things? Go back to the way things were? You almost sit and blame yourself for everything that went wrong, wish that everything you ever did, you didnt. You wish that you could make things go back to the way they were. I just want my life to go back to the way it was. When I smiled all the time, never cried, and had him by myside. Now im going to have to live my life in a new way. With the one person that always made me smile. He was my bestfriend. He says he still will be. But im scared im going to lose him. I would give anything to have that boy back.

Growing up

So as im sitting in my bed after a long hot summer day. I sit and think. WOW this is my last summer of school before im getting ready to go to college. I sit and wonder, did i do everything i could to be the best i could be over the past 11 years. I really dont think i have. I look at my future ahead and realize i will never be able to choose my number one college, like USC. im stuck in new england with this shitty weather. And then i sit and wonder, where will my life take me? I know its close to here but what if everything i have ever planned for myself goes completely wrong and im stuck living a life that i hadnt planed on living. What will I do if im the kid that is stuck living with mom and dad? Dont get me wrong i love them more than anything, but i cant stand being a kid in their house more than i need to. It also scares me because i have so much to live up to, a sister who is 25 and has a great job and can depend on her self. The part that scares me is what if i cant? what will i do? i dont want to be teh poor kid that runs home everytime something goes wrong. Oh the wonders of life.

Think before you speak

Do you ever say something you wish you hadn't? And you realize what you said after you said it? You almost wish you could take it back. No matter what you say can't fix it because what you have said has already hurt the person. And the worst part is that you wish that you had never said what you said because that person means a lot to you and you know they care about you. And the worst is the after effect. Everything you do to that person they are gonna treat you different. They might not even be their for you anymore and thats the scariest part. It hurts so bad knowing that the person you care about won't be their for you because of one thing you said that you didn't mean.