Growing up

So as im sitting in my bed after a long hot summer day. I sit and think. WOW this is my last summer of school before im getting ready to go to college. I sit and wonder, did i do everything i could to be the best i could be over the past 11 years. I really dont think i have. I look at my future ahead and realize i will never be able to choose my number one college, like USC. im stuck in new england with this shitty weather. And then i sit and wonder, where will my life take me? I know its close to here but what if everything i have ever planned for myself goes completely wrong and im stuck living a life that i hadnt planed on living. What will I do if im the kid that is stuck living with mom and dad? Dont get me wrong i love them more than anything, but i cant stand being a kid in their house more than i need to. It also scares me because i have so much to live up to, a sister who is 25 and has a great job and can depend on her self. The part that scares me is what if i cant? what will i do? i dont want to be teh poor kid that runs home everytime something goes wrong. Oh the wonders of life.